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REVASU CAADO OUPEN! ENAMI CANTARORA!


BTW, thanks everyone for the comments. im feeling better now. ^^

its confusing, ya know? you meet people a while back and get along so easily. You eventually become friends and talk about subjects you both like.

Then theres a change. Something happens that makes them change into someone you dont recognize. It scares me how people can just completely do a switch around. I especially see this in artist friends.


it creeps me out ya know? how people can just change like that. or maybe im the one that never changed.....

i may be the most irritable, childish wacko, or is it just that im not the one who begins to act all highly about himself? I have seen it alot to people i thought were my friends.

i sometimes think im left behind because of my lack of skill. Maybe im not funny enough.......... maybe i dont converse well.

its come to a point where i have just given up. Im sick of being the one who had to do all the work to get friends. It always starts out if i think your interesting to talk to, fun to be with, connect. ya know?

I know some of you are thinking JEZUZ WHY THE HELL SHOULD YOU CARE? YOU CAN MAKE MORE FRIENDS SRSLY QUIT YOUR BITCHIN.

and truthfully, i try. I try so hard that somedays, i can just do whatever i wanted and not give a shit. but,honestly, who really can forget about people you were friends with? your best bud. Those guys who would help you out in a situtation, cheer you up when you have no one to turn too.

is it they only thought of you as there backup flunky to talk to when they no one else to talk with? Why does it happen to the artist friends? why does it happen to ALOT of people?

what, am i not good enough? am i not funny!? i mean, i might be annoying at certian points, but serously, who trys not to be?

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im sorry, its been on my mind for months.

Hell, even years. im afraid of making new friends. especially ones with exceptional art skill, being that awesome bastard, fun person to be around, the all around cool guy.


.............i once told a person that i wanted to be like them, they were my idol. Only a few months older than me, a fuckin prodigy. I could never amount to there level, no matter how much i tried for them.

Maybe its why im so hatefull towards people who just draw amazingly. They change, forget your there, maybe say something completly random that you dont know if there joking or not. Dont even try to contact you.

im not the best artist, but i try.
im not the best person, but i try.
im not the funniest person, but i just keep smiling making myself the butt of the joke when i mess up.
im not amazing, but i damn well try my hardest for people i call "friends".

im sick of trying. im sick of losing people i thought who were people i could understand, trust.


im really sorry about this, i dont let this happen alot. But i guess i just want people to know. Say something about this situation.

I dont want to hate all great artists. i know some of them are good people. but what they post, there actions, just makes me wish to never become an artist. i even though about dropping out of college because of it. The basic personality of everyone else.

ME, the untalented screw up.

im realy sorry again. At least you only get one of these once every year or 2. Im doing good, for those who worry. Its this shit that keeps me awake at night.

anyways, back to reality.

ganbatte yo, everyone.

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i freakin want it. *crys anime waterfall tears*

my inner asian says so. ]:

No internet over here, but i will try and get some type of connection by the end of the week...or month. XD;;;;

BTW. tablet broke. Awesome start for the new year. so no colored pictures or any sort of art for the time being. (like i have been posting anyways)

So yeah, if i plan this out right, ill be in some kind of debt. :]

Macs are crap. but whoever uses them are really brave or just mac lovers. and i hate Mac lovers. >:[ *quote of the year*

so yar, whatever.

So im all...moved in and shit like that. its okay once you get used to the assholes outside talking loudly AND the very thin walls i have paid 2600 dollars a year for to hear them retards. all in all, its put me in a sour mood.

BUT THAT DOUSNT GET ME DOWN

haha fake enthusiasm.....so yeah, im gonna start being an asshole now.




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cuz people just flock to duchbag artists who treat everyone like a low life shit heel.


AM I RIGHT? 8========~ ~ ~ ~~~~
screw off.